The things that are hard for me are the lack or independence and how much work I have to do. I want to spend more time just being here and exploring with my friends, but I can't because I have to be responsible and make sure my work gets done. I wish I had had more of my work done before I arrived. This year and especially this semester has been the most challenging of my whole life. I will be so glad when graduation gets here. As for my lack of independence not much has changed on that front, and I don't think it will. It would nicer if I were able to come and go as I please but I have to make sure that someone can let me in to my flat and I have to make plans with Olga so she can plan accordingly. I don't mind to much and I am not going to be rude. But I would like to just say, “I'm going out be back later.” It has been so long since I have had parental figure waiting on me. Jon waits for me but he only checks in with me when he needs something or I had told a time and then my plans change. He is generally out of the house more than me, so I am the one doing the checking-up. That's the great think about our relationship is that we have grown-up independently together. So I'm not used to having to always make plans. BUT like I said it's a small price to pay to have these people open their homes to me and take such excellent care of me.
I noticed that we have all either gotten to or gone through that stage where we are just angry. Most of us have said “I just want to go home” at one point or another. I haven't gotten to the point that I feel like I want to go home, but I definitely needed some space from some of the people in our group. I miss my best friend Kali. She excepts me for me. Me and all my weirdness. I don't feel out of place with her. There are few people I feel totally comfortable around and I miss that comfort. Still, the hardest part is not being able to speak the language. I can meet as many people here as I want but if I dont speak the language it doesn't matter who I meet. It's learning experience.